I didn't feel like being cute this morning, or the afternoon and still not tonight. In a recent book I read it described events in ones' life as "The Great Sadness" and who can really measure the heart for sadness? I'm down in the dumps today. One blogger told me she never puts anything on her blog that is negative. Ugh, but what happens when you are not happy, you are sad? Do you hide? Not even my Happy Room cheered me up today...waves of sadness battered at my soul today, on a perfectly sunny day.
I walked the dogs three times today and everywhere I walked, I remembered this windy day last August with all my dogs. Who would have known just a month later I would loose my little Misha, my chihuahua? Don't mind the wild hair please...it is really me!
I remember this day when I sat on a bench and waited for my friend and I was totally in love with life and my little dogs...
In September, it will be one year since Misha passed from this earth...
I miss my friends today. I miss you and I miss Shelley and Nico and Iris and Carol and Anita and April and Holly and Myrna and Joanne and the list goes on and on...Sometimes being an only child with no sister's in a bummer...
Yesterday at work, some beautiful plates came in the thrift store and they reminded me of my mom, who loved to china paint...my friend Penny would love this plate, add her to my missing someone list...
Just a little note tonight to let you know you are thought of and I read your comments and they always encourage me and help me go on...even when you have days of The Great Sadness.
I miss my childhood, my husbands at work, my sons are in another city and so is the rest of my family what little I have...I figure if I'm going to have a Great Sadness Day I may as well be sad and get over it...hopefully by tomorrow...
I miss old fashioned letters in my mailbox and the smell of my dad's shirts. I miss the smell of my grandma's cinnamon rolls and my mom's bread pudding and banana bread...I miss my little grandson oh shoot, I'm on a pity party...I know. You don't have to join in, but thanks for reading...It's just one of those "real" days where The Great Sadness comes and does you a favor...
You get to cry on a perfectly beautiful summer day while sipping lemonade and wonder, why today?
I walked the dogs three times today and everywhere I walked, I remembered this windy day last August with all my dogs. Who would have known just a month later I would loose my little Misha, my chihuahua? Don't mind the wild hair please...it is really me!
I remember this day when I sat on a bench and waited for my friend and I was totally in love with life and my little dogs...
In September, it will be one year since Misha passed from this earth...
I miss my friends today. I miss you and I miss Shelley and Nico and Iris and Carol and Anita and April and Holly and Myrna and Joanne and the list goes on and on...Sometimes being an only child with no sister's in a bummer...
Yesterday at work, some beautiful plates came in the thrift store and they reminded me of my mom, who loved to china paint...my friend Penny would love this plate, add her to my missing someone list...
Just a little note tonight to let you know you are thought of and I read your comments and they always encourage me and help me go on...even when you have days of The Great Sadness.
I miss my childhood, my husbands at work, my sons are in another city and so is the rest of my family what little I have...I figure if I'm going to have a Great Sadness Day I may as well be sad and get over it...hopefully by tomorrow...
I miss old fashioned letters in my mailbox and the smell of my dad's shirts. I miss the smell of my grandma's cinnamon rolls and my mom's bread pudding and banana bread...I miss my little grandson oh shoot, I'm on a pity party...I know. You don't have to join in, but thanks for reading...It's just one of those "real" days where The Great Sadness comes and does you a favor...
You get to cry on a perfectly beautiful summer day while sipping lemonade and wonder, why today?
I am here dear Jackie... Sounds like empty nest to me... You are always in my thoughts.. I have been here, not so much lately because I am woking on my kitchen. You know how to find me dear friend, only an email away.. Would also love to have a visit from you..
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Penny
Jackie...Oh, do I get what you are sating. The Great Sadness must have leapt over the pond and has settled in here at Wayside Cottage. Lots of love to you, my dear friend.
ReplyDeleteawww!! jackie, we all have those days. Ive had a few to many lately with the loss of baby jacob. I avoid thinking about my own family.. mom, dad, and siblings.. cause that really puts me over the edge. some days are just those days.. and I say go for it throw it all into the hat and dance around it.. cry and then baby yourself.. feed yourself comfort food, and pamper yourself a little. I hate days when even the things that normally would bring you joy.. dont. those are tough days. but hang in there sister.. it will pass.. I know your sweet spirit loves light and joy and it wont allow you to stay down in the dark dumps for long... I know this.. because you are like me!
ReplyDeletebig hugs to you!!
xoxoxo
vivian
Writing about it does help,and we all get those days.Hoping tomorrow is brighter in your heart.I've been struggling with adjusting to this new life of gastric bypass so I get down lately too.God continue to bless you Denise
ReplyDeleteI too have had many of those days dear sister friend,but can't let them keep you down. You have been my "Great Encourager" all alone...I am blessed to have a friend as dear as a sister....my family is your family,but not sure you would want to claim them all :) I know you miss your sweet Misha. Our dogs give and give and ask nothing in return. Last night I spent a few minutes playing with Duke letting him fetch his toys...he lasted only for a bit before he had to stop. He is in his last days to be sure. I pray this morning found you in happier spirits,and back to your bouncy,joyful self :) God bless you my sweet beautiful friend.
ReplyDeleteYes, I had to tell myself yesterday: "It's no big deal. It's just depression. Your hormones are scrambled up but it won't last forever and you'll be having fun and be happy again. Don't worry."
ReplyDeleteYou'll feel better, too my friend.
Love the pic of your grand gnome. :)
Dear, dear Jackie,
ReplyDeleteI wondered what had happened to you. I am sending you an email. PLEASE RESPOND to it even if it is a short one.....PLEASE SEE YOUR EMAIL. Anita
Yesterday I was in K-Mart and a little boy was shopping with his Gramma. He asked, "Can we stay in this aisle, Gramma?!" I just about BURST out crying...longing for the days when our children were little..the fun of grabbing a new toy.Where are those days? Why did they go so fast? It claws and grabs at my heart and it is almost Unbearable. Life is different now, my dear Girl. A good friend went to The Circus the other night..Barnum and Bailey...not the same! I thought of you...Barbie is different, The Circus is different. But we still have the dreams and the knowledge in our hearts..we can tell the stories and bring it all back..we can share! And if it gets to be too much, as it did for me years ago, you can swallow your pride and find an antidepressant that will HELP and might even save your life (It did for me!) And I am not too embarrassed to share with you. Need to talk sometime, I'm always here and I LOVE YOU!!! XOXOOXOX, April.
ReplyDeleteI'm so glad I just stumbled upon your blog. I was having "one of those days" this week--Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday...I know how you feel and I think it's perfectly therapeutic to blog about it. Not every day is sunshine and gummi bears. :) I hope today you are feeling better. Just remember it's okay to to talk about how you're feeling. Take care!
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Dear Jackie,
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry for your "blue" day,I have plenty myself.I do hope you are feeling better. I love that quote from a little girl on Pinterest," If you are blue , why not paint yourself another color."It made me smile , but when depression sets in it is not that easy to change how you're feeling , I know.I am praying for you.
"Cast all your worries on him (Jesus) for he cares for you."1 Peter5:7
Love,
~Myrna
By the way...I L-O-V-E your craft room!
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